My name is Yvonne. Wife for 17 years and mother of 6.
I grew up in a broken home where both parents divorced and remarried. The eldest child.
Had a somewhat emotionally unavailable dad and a narcissistic neglectful mom. A stepmom who never got past her abandonment issues and further enabled my dad to pushing me aside.
Finally the worst of all was my stepfather, who pretended to be a caring father figure that ended up stealing my innocence for 11 years from 8 to 17.
I could write a short novel on certain aspects of these struggles, but I can say as a woman that these are things reflect what could be the blockage for women or even young girls reaching our true potential.
I've barely had fights with my husband at all until we've stumbled upon the truth when it comes to polygyny.
Sadly my husband has been the only man who has made me feel safe like a father does for his daughter which I didn't have growing up. Who has went beyond and listened and cared so much for me that it even was something I had to get used to because I grew up starving for it.
He is my home where my soul feels it can be bare and vulnerable because he knows every part of who I am.
It is too because of my perfectionism and the feeling of him trading me in that I get angry, scared, and sad. Which I understand through our discussions extensively of polygyny that he is also doing this so I can have more emotional support too.
We also are wanting to grow our family, but since I'm also almost 40, I am anemic and want to not take the risk of passing away or losing a child. I want to be there for any children born into the family from a future sisterwife.
I know part of my jealousy is tied to what was put in front of me in the modern world and my messed up upbringing didn't help.
After coming to this forum, I am realizing how deep the Biblical rabbit hole goes. It's the deepest one my husband and I have ever gone.
My husband and I came together to make a home we wanted growing up for ourselves and children we would have. We have a no-tolerence policy for spiritually toxic influences from having a huge distain towards the issues from our dysfunctional childhoods.
Our journey has been to learn as much truth as possible. I admit it has been uncomfortable to realize we've been lied to about how life is supposed to be lived and the true purpose of our humanity.
I grew up in a broken home where both parents divorced and remarried. The eldest child.
Had a somewhat emotionally unavailable dad and a narcissistic neglectful mom. A stepmom who never got past her abandonment issues and further enabled my dad to pushing me aside.
Finally the worst of all was my stepfather, who pretended to be a caring father figure that ended up stealing my innocence for 11 years from 8 to 17.
I could write a short novel on certain aspects of these struggles, but I can say as a woman that these are things reflect what could be the blockage for women or even young girls reaching our true potential.
I've barely had fights with my husband at all until we've stumbled upon the truth when it comes to polygyny.
Sadly my husband has been the only man who has made me feel safe like a father does for his daughter which I didn't have growing up. Who has went beyond and listened and cared so much for me that it even was something I had to get used to because I grew up starving for it.
He is my home where my soul feels it can be bare and vulnerable because he knows every part of who I am.
It is too because of my perfectionism and the feeling of him trading me in that I get angry, scared, and sad. Which I understand through our discussions extensively of polygyny that he is also doing this so I can have more emotional support too.
We also are wanting to grow our family, but since I'm also almost 40, I am anemic and want to not take the risk of passing away or losing a child. I want to be there for any children born into the family from a future sisterwife.
I know part of my jealousy is tied to what was put in front of me in the modern world and my messed up upbringing didn't help.
After coming to this forum, I am realizing how deep the Biblical rabbit hole goes. It's the deepest one my husband and I have ever gone.
My husband and I came together to make a home we wanted growing up for ourselves and children we would have. We have a no-tolerence policy for spiritually toxic influences from having a huge distain towards the issues from our dysfunctional childhoods.
Our journey has been to learn as much truth as possible. I admit it has been uncomfortable to realize we've been lied to about how life is supposed to be lived and the true purpose of our humanity.
It is hard to find true acceptance in our world when our views in life, marriage, even just how we relate to each other is clouded by modern falsehoods.
