Help me to understand who I am

[ladyvalkerie]

Hi, I'm Carla. Sorry for the cryptic subject line,but I really do need help. My religious background is Baptist andLDS. I know, miles apart. But that kinda shows how lost I feel. I had no idea that there were people of faith, not Mormons practicing polygamy. I am so happy I found you. I have been married for 10 years to the love of my life. He is my 3rd husband. After reading some of the forums here, I can truly see that I am spiritually married to my husband and was not to numbers 1and 2.
I have watched Sisterwives from the beginning. I also watched Big Love. I watched both because I felt a certain 'fondness' for the belief in polygamy. But it's the love that lingers with me. I don't have any scripture to back me up, I dont have a religious background or upbringing that has influenced my beliefs, but I just feel warmth, love, and a sense of joy in my heart that tells me this right and true. Like a memory I didn't know I had.
My husband and I have discussed a sisterwife, but he is very reluctant. For him, it's about his dedication and love for me. He says I am his everything and I am all he needs. For me, I love him so much,that I want to make sure he is cared for should I pass before him. I know that should I truly begin a search for wife number 2, I would know the right one because I would love her too.
Up till now however, I thought of it more as an alternative lifestyle rather than a faith based belief. We are Christians but I must admit we don't attend church and most days you wouldnt know we were ever in one. I am ashamed to admit that but its true. I feel that I am a pretty spiritual person and I seek out new spiritual information whenever I hear it or am led to it. I hunger for the word of God. Moreso than my husband who is blindly content with what he was taught in the Sunday school room when he was a kid. This hunger for knowledge and the feeling of purpose and truth for the polygamist lifestyle and my desire to possibly find a sisterwife to share my life with has lead me to your website.
I think this is truth. Please help me to know it is.

 

[Dr. K.R. Allen]

Why hello Carla, and what a lovely post on who you are and what the Lord is doing in your life. Thanks for sharing.

There is a lot of information here on this site and it is full of the Scriptures. Browse around on the main website pages, visit the teaching articles section (under the resources tab link), and feel free to ask any questions you may have. You can also email the staff at:

staff@biblicalfamilies.org with any personal questions you may have and one or several of us will give you any insight or ideas that we might have in regard to the matters you are specifically dealing with.

For now I would simply urge you to read Proverbs 3:5-7 and pray that the Lord builds the faith of you and your covenant mate. It sounds like the Lord has richly blessed you as you are and thus so long as you keep seeking him you will both discover the Lord's will as you will also find joy and contentment.

 

[Scarecrow]

There truly is a movement of the Spirit in this generation. More and more people are finding this site and realizing that we don't hide in compounds and make women wear Prairie Dresses.

My first thought when I read the title was that you are a child of God. When my younger sister accepted Jesus as her Lord and Savior she heard a distinct voice that stated "Learn my Word." Getting in a daily habit of reading the Bible will help you more than anything. Many people struggle to read through the Old Testament so I would suggest starting with Luke then continuing on book by book through the rest of the New Testament. Spending time in prayer is likely to be just as important as your time in the Word. God knows who you are...let Him show you.

 

[Heather]

Wow, I certainly could have written your post! I am also of LDS background, but was saved as a Baptist. Now I am JUST a Bible believing Christian without a church because no church we have found supports what we believe.

My husband and I also felt led (more so me) to this belief that there is Biblical base for polygamy. That being said, we are content with our marriage and family as it is today. We feel about this issue just like we do about all others...if God wants something for our family, it will happen. We study his word, we pray. Just as we wait on the Lord to see if he wants to add children to our family (through adoption), we also wait on him to see if it is his will to add another wife to our family. We do not seek out another wife.

So, what I am trying to say is we are Bible bases believers in polygamy who have a beautiful family of one wife and one husband. At sometime that could change, but it would be in God's time and his will, not our own.

I would love to get to know you though.

 

[AussieGuy30]

Wow, I certainly could have written your post! I am also of LDS background, but was saved as a Baptist. Now I am JUST a Bible believing Christian without a church because no church we have found supports what we believe.

My husband and I also felt led (more so me) to this belief that there is Biblical base for polygamy. That being said, we are content with our marriage and family as it is today. We feel about this issue just like we do about all others...if God wants something for our family, it will happen. We study his word, we pray. Just as we wait on the Lord to see if he wants to add children to our family (through adoption), we also wait on him to see if it is his will to add another wife to our family. We do not seek out another wife.

So, what I am trying to say is we are Bible bases believers in polygamy who have a beautiful family of one wife and one husband. At sometime that could change, but it would be in God's time and his will, not our own.

I would love to get to know you though.

Thanks for sharing your testimony. I know there are many Mormons in Utah practicing Polygamy, and the families seem to be functioning better than most secular families from what I have seen through documentaries. I agreed with one PM wife who shared that PM is what Abraham, Isaac and Jacob did.

I thank God you did get out of the cult of LDS, and you came to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ.