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I don't know what's going on but my business is not what it was.
Years ago I gave up a good paycheck as a programmer and bought a business with the goal of more freedom in the future when I one day had a family of having more time with them and to have more time to spend studying. It's my heart's desire to become a biblical scholar; I feel every hour that I'm away from study. Of course family and ministry are in there too. Over the years the business was rarely as profitable as I'd been as a consultant but my stress levels were much much much lower and my time for family and ministry and learning was much increased.
I need to decide if I should get a normal job or something. If I were in the states or Israel getting a normal job would be much easier; in the Philippines this is not so easy.
In the past when the business had an issue, we sucked it up, waited on the L-rd, and bam customers flowed in at the right time. We had a few huge setbacks like legal bullying from larger entities (quite claiming you are the biggest xyz on google even though you are or we'll sue you) which we couldn't fight so eventually we grew used to the smaller income. Now it's been several days and I'm getting concerned. As the paterfamilias, this is on me.
I should have posted this days ago but only now am I humble enough to ask for the prayer support. I can't ask our local communities to pray because in the culture this will be misinterpreted.
Specific prayer request aims:
1) For wisdom for direct actions I should take
2) For a blessing from the L-rd either in the form of more customers or some online way I can make some loot for my family to get us over the hump while I'm implementing #1
Thank you all in advance for your prayers