Hello All, I just thought I would share a little something with you on how God is completely taking over my life and answering and giving me everything I need.
First, in 2009 I had to leave a bad situation with nothing other than the clothes on my back. Where I ended up I thought was punishment for leaving at the time. We are talking flea infested, sewage, no electric, 3 gun shots in my back yard, and having to send my son away to a boarding school to get him out of the situation. Just before my son left, I found a great new position in management and started to rethink sending him. I did send him. Once at this position for only two months I was able to move to a very clean, beautiful, country apt. Praise God! ( at the time i did not)
About 10 months into my new position I obtained a new Boss, female, that did not like the fact that I knew her job inside and out and the fact that I decided to go to college and earn a degree. She had no formal education, but so what, she was the Boss. So anyway, things started going down hill from there. At a year, my struggle to get up and go to work every day was almost unbearable. I did pop in with God from time to time just to ask why this is happening again, why is it that things go really good for some time and then just turn to a huge struggle. I guess I wasn't listening because I never received an answer. While all this was going on, my best friend moved to another state to start her life with her boyfriend. Of course I was happy for her, but also jealous at the same time. Again, I asked God why I can not have that. (bitch and complain, that was me at this point) Well what happened next I believe was God completely taking control. I went to work one day, and man I almost just called off that day. About 30 minutes into my day, BAM, I got hurt. Another Boss in the company ran and overloaded A-frame over my foot and I reacted by yanking it out from underneath. I was done at that point. I couldn't walk, had no one to help me, could drive, couldn't take care of my kids properly when they were there. I just became a lump of severe depression. The doctors were not doing their job. And then someone unexpected stepped in to help. Someone from my company that I only knew because he came over a few times to upload some programs I needed for school. A friend of an acquittance. I mean, I have severe trust issues and I couldn't believe this man was doing everything that he was doing for nothing other than just being a good man. But still, it wasn't good enough. I still felt so alone. I almost dropped out of school, but one day, for an unknown reason really, I just decided to search the internet for some kind of answers, friendships, whatever, with people of God. Nov. 2010 is the first time I came across Biblical Families. Maybe BF was not exactly what I was looking for, but I was able to see the community that all of you have together and it made me seek other areas of interest for myself. Everything I was learning I was sharing with my friend Blaine. No matter what I said to him, he never made me feel like I was wrong about thinking a certain type of way and would discuss everything and anything with me. Because I was off work, I had no income. Blaine stepped in every time I needed my rent paid, food in the house, doctor apts. He was just there. (Praise God, and yes this time I said as much)
Because the doctors were not doing their job, I was given the suggestion to sue. This never entered my mind, I just do not think that way. But, I lost many things because of this injury that I had nothing to do with. Then of course I felt guilty for doing so and started to think about how God is looking at me now. During all of this, my lease was up on my apt and Blaine had gotten married by this point and said, hey my home is sitting empty, would you like to rent it? WOW, a real home. How will I furnish this home, I have nothing, just a bed for me and a bed for the boys, and one chair for the living room. One day, I got online and a couple was getting rid of their furniture because they were moving back into their parents house. (Praise God) They were giving it away for nothing if you could pick it up. So not I had a couch, end tables, a TV stand, kitchen table, and a few other odds and ends. So I started to think that maybe this is where I am being led. Actual bedrooms for each of my kids plus more. Can this be for real? ( Praise God) I moved into the home and have begun to fix it up, needs a lot of care. Out of no where, the insurance company wants to settle my claim. (Praise God) I am still not working because my company would not find me sit down work. We go to the settlement hearing and they offer a pretty good deal. (Praise God) I could have drawn it out for a while and received a ton more, but I know I do not need to do that. (Praise God for not allowing me to be greedy)
PRAISE GOD FOR SHOWING ME HE CARES ABOUT ME AND SHOWING ME HE WILL GIVE ME EVERYTHING I NEED!
Now, I have been having struggles with myself and finding a church to attend, basically because I make excuses not to go. I have felt that I do not belong because as an adult that believes in the Lord, I know almost nothing of the bible. I know only what I have read, usually when I have a question, I can just flip the Word open and there the answer is, and know most from what I have listened to. I have been looking for a study group, trying to put one together, but it hasn't seemed to be working. Finding people like me, wanting to know God from a beginners stand point has been stressful. I talked to Blaine about churches last night and what kind of church he thinks I would like to attend. He suggested a church called Living Word. It is a very large church, which makes me a little uneasy, but the kids program looks really good from the investigation I did online last night. I got up this morning with my mind on attending and taking my oldest son Nathan. (Praise God) I went. Just in the nic of time. Not only did my son absolutely love it and want to go back every week, they are offering a "BEGINNERS CLASS" that starts on the 28th!! And I am thinking this beginners class if for new church members. Nope, it is for anyone who is taking their first steps toward God. I mean come on, how is this possible? How can God keep just putting everything on a silver platter for me? So, I came home and registered online to take this class. I have such a sense of wanting to know God and after all the trouble I have been having with my son, I see it in him as well. I just bought him a bible and I catch him just reading it. (Praise God) I almost feel a sense of peace for the first time in my life that everything is going to be okay. And I Praise God that I am able to share this with all of you. I would love to have a few prayers here and there that God will help me stay on this path to Him and be a witness to my son and show him how to be "good" with the Lord. :mrgreen:
First, in 2009 I had to leave a bad situation with nothing other than the clothes on my back. Where I ended up I thought was punishment for leaving at the time. We are talking flea infested, sewage, no electric, 3 gun shots in my back yard, and having to send my son away to a boarding school to get him out of the situation. Just before my son left, I found a great new position in management and started to rethink sending him. I did send him. Once at this position for only two months I was able to move to a very clean, beautiful, country apt. Praise God! ( at the time i did not)
About 10 months into my new position I obtained a new Boss, female, that did not like the fact that I knew her job inside and out and the fact that I decided to go to college and earn a degree. She had no formal education, but so what, she was the Boss. So anyway, things started going down hill from there. At a year, my struggle to get up and go to work every day was almost unbearable. I did pop in with God from time to time just to ask why this is happening again, why is it that things go really good for some time and then just turn to a huge struggle. I guess I wasn't listening because I never received an answer. While all this was going on, my best friend moved to another state to start her life with her boyfriend. Of course I was happy for her, but also jealous at the same time. Again, I asked God why I can not have that. (bitch and complain, that was me at this point) Well what happened next I believe was God completely taking control. I went to work one day, and man I almost just called off that day. About 30 minutes into my day, BAM, I got hurt. Another Boss in the company ran and overloaded A-frame over my foot and I reacted by yanking it out from underneath. I was done at that point. I couldn't walk, had no one to help me, could drive, couldn't take care of my kids properly when they were there. I just became a lump of severe depression. The doctors were not doing their job. And then someone unexpected stepped in to help. Someone from my company that I only knew because he came over a few times to upload some programs I needed for school. A friend of an acquittance. I mean, I have severe trust issues and I couldn't believe this man was doing everything that he was doing for nothing other than just being a good man. But still, it wasn't good enough. I still felt so alone. I almost dropped out of school, but one day, for an unknown reason really, I just decided to search the internet for some kind of answers, friendships, whatever, with people of God. Nov. 2010 is the first time I came across Biblical Families. Maybe BF was not exactly what I was looking for, but I was able to see the community that all of you have together and it made me seek other areas of interest for myself. Everything I was learning I was sharing with my friend Blaine. No matter what I said to him, he never made me feel like I was wrong about thinking a certain type of way and would discuss everything and anything with me. Because I was off work, I had no income. Blaine stepped in every time I needed my rent paid, food in the house, doctor apts. He was just there. (Praise God, and yes this time I said as much)
Because the doctors were not doing their job, I was given the suggestion to sue. This never entered my mind, I just do not think that way. But, I lost many things because of this injury that I had nothing to do with. Then of course I felt guilty for doing so and started to think about how God is looking at me now. During all of this, my lease was up on my apt and Blaine had gotten married by this point and said, hey my home is sitting empty, would you like to rent it? WOW, a real home. How will I furnish this home, I have nothing, just a bed for me and a bed for the boys, and one chair for the living room. One day, I got online and a couple was getting rid of their furniture because they were moving back into their parents house. (Praise God) They were giving it away for nothing if you could pick it up. So not I had a couch, end tables, a TV stand, kitchen table, and a few other odds and ends. So I started to think that maybe this is where I am being led. Actual bedrooms for each of my kids plus more. Can this be for real? ( Praise God) I moved into the home and have begun to fix it up, needs a lot of care. Out of no where, the insurance company wants to settle my claim. (Praise God) I am still not working because my company would not find me sit down work. We go to the settlement hearing and they offer a pretty good deal. (Praise God) I could have drawn it out for a while and received a ton more, but I know I do not need to do that. (Praise God for not allowing me to be greedy)
PRAISE GOD FOR SHOWING ME HE CARES ABOUT ME AND SHOWING ME HE WILL GIVE ME EVERYTHING I NEED!
Now, I have been having struggles with myself and finding a church to attend, basically because I make excuses not to go. I have felt that I do not belong because as an adult that believes in the Lord, I know almost nothing of the bible. I know only what I have read, usually when I have a question, I can just flip the Word open and there the answer is, and know most from what I have listened to. I have been looking for a study group, trying to put one together, but it hasn't seemed to be working. Finding people like me, wanting to know God from a beginners stand point has been stressful. I talked to Blaine about churches last night and what kind of church he thinks I would like to attend. He suggested a church called Living Word. It is a very large church, which makes me a little uneasy, but the kids program looks really good from the investigation I did online last night. I got up this morning with my mind on attending and taking my oldest son Nathan. (Praise God) I went. Just in the nic of time. Not only did my son absolutely love it and want to go back every week, they are offering a "BEGINNERS CLASS" that starts on the 28th!! And I am thinking this beginners class if for new church members. Nope, it is for anyone who is taking their first steps toward God. I mean come on, how is this possible? How can God keep just putting everything on a silver platter for me? So, I came home and registered online to take this class. I have such a sense of wanting to know God and after all the trouble I have been having with my son, I see it in him as well. I just bought him a bible and I catch him just reading it. (Praise God) I almost feel a sense of peace for the first time in my life that everything is going to be okay. And I Praise God that I am able to share this with all of you. I would love to have a few prayers here and there that God will help me stay on this path to Him and be a witness to my son and show him how to be "good" with the Lord. :mrgreen:
