I apologize I am responding late to this, I have dealt with miscarriages, and know how painful it can be. Sometimes, I know it's even harder when people try to console you... especially when it's people who don't quite understand what it's like. I hope with time, you've healed, and I want to share some things that helped me, dealing with being told I was barren, but then having a child (started as twins, but lost one) , and then having 2 back to back miscarriages after the birth of the miracle child.
The 3 scriptures I will post below helped me because they reminded me that even though my unborn children didn't make it to this world, they did get an automatic pass into the Kingdom. They never had to suffer the hardships and pain of this world, and they are in the best place they can be, with the Father. When the Fathers Kingdom is established, they will be there. That gives me even more determination to make it to the Kingdom so that I can meet them one-day. Here are the scriptures:
Ecclesiastes 6:3
If a man beget an hundred children, and live many years, so that the days of his years be many, and his soul be not filled with good, and also that he have no burial; I say, that an untimely birth is better than he.
Psalms 113:9
He maketh the barren woman to keep house, [and to be] a joyful mother of children. Praise ye the LORD.
Isaiah 54:1
Sing, O barren, thou [that] didst not bear; break forth into singing, and cry aloud, thou [that] didst not travail with child: for more [are] the children of the desolate than the children of the married wife, saith the LORD.
To me, these scriptures show us that the children who did not make this world, will be in the Kingdom. If an unborn child is better than a man whose lived 100 years, that speaks a lot. To heal my pain, I focused on how blessed I am that I have three baby's to meet in the Kingdom.
Suffering the miscarriages, I cried a lot. I did allow myself to mourn my children. However, the great news for you is that you DID become pregnant, which means you can get pregnant. After my miscarriages, I thought I was done and got rid of all my baby stuff. Low and behold, 7 months later I became pregnant which means I am 5 months pregnant now. You just have to wait on HIS time now, which is the hard part...I know.... but it builds our patience and trust in Him.
I hope this helps you, and I know really there are no words to help what you feel inside. But it's nothing we did, it's the Father being in control. Maybe sometimes He needs us to carry the children for a short while who will get an automatic pass to the Kingdom. One of my pregnancies lasted 2 weeks, another 6 weeks. He used my body for His will. My heart goes out to you, and I hope these scriptures can help you as well.