I’d be very careful here. This should be decided by the husband. You are setting yourself up as the bad gal here if you do not place this decision squarely on his shoulders.
In addition, he has a responsibility to continue her rights of cohabitation or marriage rights after bringing in a new wife. These are so much more than intercourse, and in this case, where sexual intimacy is difficult/impossible, he needs to be extra vigilant to provide the emotional and physical contact (hugs, touch, closeness) that every wife would need. His failure to do so will ultimately undermine his relationship with you and any additional wives he may add.
Now that all my past drama was addressed... I'll give a little background into how the idea of PM came up for me. In many posts that I've read so far it seems as if the FW often is the one that needed the convincing to join this lifestyle. I'm not saying this is the case every time but it seems to be a common thread I've been reading.
In this particular situation I have been the one that has had to be talked into this ... so to speak. In one of my replies I mentioned how over 15 years ago FW had agreed to let me join their family because #3 was in love with me and I was in love with him. However... I refused to even consider it at that time. And #3 had considered divorcing FW to be with me. But as you can imagine there was a lot of intense feelings and emotions for everyone and long story short I ended up getting angry, & upset and left town vowing never to return to this place which I didn't for 10 years.
Because it's a small town he found me shortly after I moved back... and here we are. Even in the beginning. I took the stand I did 15 years ago ... that if he wanted to be with me he needed to divorce his wife and marry me. But then a combination of God and #3 talking to me about PM I slowly started to warm up to the idea.
At first I was more concerned about my place and their dynamic and what would and would not occur and ... typical jealous possessive behavior which obviously won't work in a PM. Every time he would refer to FW as my future sister wife my skin crawled and I told him not to call her that. I would be with him... and a friend to her. I was VERY reluctant to the real idea of a PM with a sister wife.
It has been months of open honest discussions with everyone. Sometimes #3 would talk to me separately about my concerns then talk to FW separately about my concerns and she would share hers. I guess he realized that until I truly had a heart for PM and FW it was better to let him be the mediator for a while. FW was on board but her biggest concern which had justification was that I would change my mind and try to force him to divorce her again.
So fast forward several months and my heart has completely changed towards PM and FW. I am honestly starting to really care about her if not fully love her yet which I believe will come in time. She is learning to trust me and no longer view me as the threat I was all those years ago.
So when I said at first I was like no way to him spending nights in her room... it was because I was still struggling with PM and basically was trying to set this relationship up like a mono marriage between him and I with her just kinda there. Obviously I had the wrong heart at that time.
However with his patience, guidance, compassion and understanding he has helped me see PM in a totally different way.
Now that we have all managed to work out the initial challenges of accepting this lifestyle (well mainly me) the last thing I had to overcome before committing to this marriage was the guilt I was feeling based on my loved ones not being able to understand... well honestly my children. My mother knows and she sees nothing wrong with it. My aunt who is like a mother to me knows and sees nothing wrong with it. They just want me to be happy and finally be with a man who will love, honor and cherish me.
So it's primarily my children who I raised with the same traditional Christian "values" I was taught. How do I suddenly tell them... everything mom taught you about marriage is wrong and I'm going to be a second wife in a PM. I honestly think my oldest might start praying for my my deliverance right then and there. Or think I've been brain washed by a poly cult... lol... not really funny but I could totally see this happening. This is the same child that started crying when I came home with my first tattoo and she said she was crying because now I was going to hell. Apparently my ex MIL had told her anyone who got a tattoo couldn't enter the kingdom of heaven... really... she thought this was appropriate to tell a 9 year old.. so yes this is that same daughter ... which is why it would take an absolute miracle for her to not view my choice as rebellion and sin and that I was simply twisting scripture to get it to agree with my sinful decision.
Anyway that was a longer post than I extracted but it kind of sums up how I went from being completely opposed to PM 15 years ago... to reluctantly agreeing to it.... to now looking forward to it while starting to love and care for my future SW.
I can't fully express my gratitude to all of you for you feedback it really means alot that you would take your time to help me with the issues I've been struggling with.
I'm sorry I missed the women's chat tonight. #3 came by to visit with me for a little while before heading home with FW dinner and medicine. Hopefully next week I'll be able to join.
Looking forward to getting to know all of you better in this new journey of mine.