The blog is really good insight into the emotional struggle that is so real for so many. I didn't grow up with the aversion to the idea and was (and am) very positive about living this life. It does require staying in the truth and taking every thought captive. I don't believe you could be double minded and wishy washy and happy in polygyny.
My hubby and then our sons have been doing tree service for many years....since before I knew him. It is dangerous work and men who make mistakes can be seriously injured and killed. It happens every year. I learned long ago that fear and worry were bed news. One day early in my married life I worried. That was enough of that hell for me!
A life of peace requires faith. Men folk climbing trees, raising children, or adjusting to the amazing blessing of a sisterwife.
I hope and pray that you and your wife grow together and gain a stronger relationship with each other and with God through learning and studying. May she be granted enough wisdom to build her house.