Lisa,
I can tell you are really frustrated, and as one of the "older women" on the board,
perhaps I can draw from my advanced degree from HKU, the venerable institution better known as Hard Knocks University.
First of all, I would like to strongly encourage you to not be referring to your unborn son as "the man of the house." Even kids in utero pick up all kinds of things, and that's not a label or a load that your little guy needs, now or ever.
Secondly, as someone who is married to a truck driver who is gone a lot, I know it can be tough, and even more so with small kids. However, your man is working his tail off, trust me, to take care of you and your littles. A trucker's life style is extremely tough on a guy as well. What you are facing is much like being married to a military guy, and I would suggest that you avail yourself of all the info on the web that comes out of the Family Readiness Group/ Morale Welfare and Recreation sites that are put out by the DOD. You aren't having to deal with the extra element of having someone in continual danger, but there are still resources and wisdom that you can draw from that will help.
I have been in a situation, long ago, where someone's financial choices, job choices, and moral choices were a disaster. It's no fun, but it
is the invitation to find God and His faithfulness on an amazing level. I think you'll find you have more peace and energy if you can make the shift from "not going where I want to go," to "Lord, where do
You want to go, and may I come along with You?" A crisis, by its very nature, is transitory. If you
and just you seek the King, the King's righteousness and the Kingdom, and that
alone is your focus, you are going to feel waaaaay better, and your husband will sense it, too.
