The children and I are all sick. If they're not vomiting then they have a cold, and some have both. School is either not happening or being kept to a minimum, and there's a lot of movies being watched. I'm so tired.
But, through all this, I'm still finding the time to pray every day. Yesterday during the time that I usually pray I ended up falling asleep in the chair with my 4 year old, then I transferred to bed and had a proper nap, so prayer didn't happen then but it was what my body needed. I still prayed, though it ended up being in a very sleepy state just before bed. It wasn't the best quality, but I have certain things that I'm praying for on a daily basis, and at the very least those things were covered.
I'm having lots of pretty awful nightmares at the moment, and they seem very real. Then when I wake up there's lots of images and references to that. For example, last night I dreamed that there was a fire coming towards our house. We had 5 minutes to grab everything we could and go. It felt very real and I literally went through all the horror and emotions of realising that we were about to lose absolutely everything (I wasn't upset about losing 'stuff', it was things that were important to me, like my mother's recipe book and the children's baby books). Then as we had driven away I realised we'd left two of the children behind. I was running back when I woke up. It was only a dream, but then this morning there were several reports of houses that burned down in the night and a video I saw and ads about smoke alarms etc, and just random people mentioning in a discussion about insurance companies on Facebook how they'd lost everything in a fire. It's weird. Two days ago it was a similar thing about tarantulas. I'm not quite sure what to make of it all, and right now my brain is not in the best place to figure it out. Is it a spiritual attack, trying to bring all my fears out?
I'm so glad to read you're all praying every day, and even if you miss a day getting right back into it. It's nice to be doing this with others, and I'm so glad that we're working together to be closer to YHWH. Every day just a little bit more, onwards and upwards.